life getting much easier, i think?
my mind! its changing everyday, and i hate that!
i wish i have one role in that story, being bella? yea, being honest to him. always, no secret?
i guess being in love was not making me much better of taking care someone feeling?
i cant be myself! im wild!
someone said its a long way for me to change? thats rude?
i just need an 'understand', not a 'critic'
i dont need his complain, thats really made me feel sick of being myself
im loathing of myself!
im pretending that im okay, yes i do!
sensitive of touching a life that i've been through
why was that?
few days, i been thinking to get away..
which im trying, but..
i hate when im giving up of that,
im showing them off that im okay without a love in between!
without response
i felt a bit down
i dont know why im feeling that way
try to move on, eh?
i loathe of that words
i cant move on, im stuck!
they should understand me?
im selfish?
already trying to over it
they dont know how sick i am trying to move on just like they wish
get a new better one?
aaaaah!
noooooooo,
i wish someone would say 'dont stop loving him, i swear!'
someone that really understand me just because they pretty know how painful i am
even i know he already move on, i really dont mind, i wish him a better life
im not trying to get him back by.. still loving him
'love doesnt mean to have?' isn't it? what a 'drama queen', HA- HA!
but i really mean it though -.-'
my new year resolution, wassssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss..
well, i'll try to not disappoint you! you? everyone! buddies and family will be! believe me? i swear that i'll do the best! mwaaa! *kisses. a new me? see by yourself! and i makesure that you gonna love me more! yey! i love doing this. haha :D
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